looking from the outside

I have been trying to write an update for my blog for a while now...When I started writing it, it had a series of events from dinner with new neighbours to “the bones of a vampire” singing on a stage a few weeks ago. ...I deleted it because there was too much  and probably would not have made any sense to anyone.  At the end of the series of events (which you will have to imagine yourself) I am looking at myself and realise that I am still ok with the fact that the dreams and things that really matter in my life are not always there...And yes it really is OK! ....it has made my life interesting...it has kept me alive...it is the light setting for my next self-portrait and the key to the next piece of music I write...Usually I am looking from the inside out...At the moment it feels  good to be looking from the outside.

...c